Day 22 (of 30 days of yoga)

The good news is that I have actually done yoga for at least five minutes for EVERY SINGLE DAY since I wrote my last post. I haven’t done any yet today, but rest assured, it will happen, unless something seriously catastrophic happens. (If a very large asteroid destroys the planet today, I suppose I will be unable to do yoga unless I get it in fairly soon.)

I have not updated sooner because of all the things happening that I don’t really want to spend time thinking about, let alone writing about, but I will say that we had a small fire in our basement that originated with our domestic water heater. It fortunately didn’t ignite anything else, but as I could not pinpoint the source of the foul-smelling smoke in the basement, I called the fire department, and there was quite the to-do in the neighborhood.

We have two tanks, one of which is fed by a solar collector on our roof, but ironically, though we’d been having a drought for weeks, with baking hot days, after our electric tank caught fire, we had clouds and rain. We were unable to rely on the solar tank when we really needed it.

We devised a method for showering that involves some disconnected wiring and a circuit breaker being turned on for short spans of time and then back off, and we’re currently getting by, but it’s not super fun. (Or safe? but what do I know? I’m not the one studying for an electrician’s license.)

We’re trying to see if we can get any compensation from the company before purchasing a new tank. There has been some strong sun this morning, though, so our solar-fed tank was up to about 139 degrees (F) when I checked it before running a bath.

Our cat was suffering from some sort of upper respiratory issues right before the fire, so on one day he went to the vet twice, and the next day I had to hunt him down while he was hiding from the fire alarms all throughout the house that were beeping and yelling “Evacuate! Emergency! Evacuate!”

I managed to get him into his carrier and out of the house quickly, but he was feeling unwell and not thrilled about being taken to a car in his carrier again. We were able to go back inside the house in a mercifully brief span of time, so Henry was able to go back to sleeping all day between sneezes.

So… all that was quite stressful. The kitty is fairly well recovered now, and so am I, and we’ve all three of us been enjoying the yoga sessions. In the evenings, Chris and I roll out our mats with my iPad propped up on the floor in front of us, on which I play one of various YouTube yoga-before-bed videos that are available.

We stretch and relax for anywhere from 5 to 20 minutes, and Henry wanders his fluffy self into the room and flops down onto the end of one of our mats, watching and occasionally batting at a head or nipping a leg. He loves to join our yoga sessions.

Is it helping me with my anxiety? Probably. Almost definitely. It has become a lovely ritual, and I imagine we’ll keep going for a long time past the 30 days, though maybe we won’t adhere strictly to an every day regimen past that period. I’m glad I began it when I did, and I’m glad I stuck to it despite all the reasons to just skip it for the night because we’re tired and it’s late or whatever the excuse might be.

I’m finding that I remember to pay attention to my breath more often during the day, which was one of my greatest hopes for this new practice. For anyone considering trying it, I say go for it. There are so many videos for so many different levels of ability, and you have little to lose. It’s a nice self-care routine, and I wish I hadn’t waited so long to jump on the yoga bandwagon!

I’ll be back with another post at the end of the thirty days, at the latest. Hopefully I’ll also have some nice photos to share, since I recently purchased a new camera. Until then, be well, and breathe deeply!

Adventures in Anxiety: 30 days of yoga

Many of you know that I struggle with anxiety (among other things) and panic attacks. This is one of the greatest obstacles in my life, one I’m determined to overcome. I made a promise to myself this year that I would stop allowing fear to determine my course.

This means I’ve been digging out every tool in my emotional well-being toolkit, and searching out new ones to add to it. I have created lists on the ever-helpful app Wunderlist called Activities to Alleviate ___ [Depression, Anger, Panic Attacks, etc] that I call my “Double A’s,” which I can turn to in a pinch for ideas when I’m stretched too thin or too far gone in my suffering to remember all the things I can do to help myself. (My excellent, supportive husband also has access to these lists, thanks to Wunderlist’s sharing feature, and that helps him to help me.)

Some of the things I’ve learned are true allies in the battle against anxiety are nutrition, exercise, fresh air, exposure to nature and wildlife, listening to music, playing piano and singing, making art or coloring, ASMR videos (here’s one of my favorites from my favorite creator of these type of videos!), and guided meditation such as yoga nidra (this is a really lovely one, and so is this one).

I also have found a lot of help from the book “Self-Compassion” by Dr. Kristin Neff. It’s a wonderful resource for not only anxiety and depression, but general happiness.

There are so many techniques at my disposal (and everyone’s). This is ideal and also crucial, because it’s so important to me not to rely on pharmaceutical intervention for my struggles, despite some heavy opposition about that from quite a few people (except for my excellent, supportive husband).

It’s becoming more clear to me as well how important breath is in dealing with anxiety. From what I have read, disordered breathing is not simply a result of anxiety, but possibly a major cause of it. I find that I’m usually a shallow breather, and I yawn frequently. I am now trying to correct this, to remind myself to breath deeply and more diaphragmatically throughout the day.

This past weekend, my husband and I took a trip to visit family. We live a couple of states away, and it takes about 6 or 7 hours in the car to get there, and I am not a comfortable, happy traveler like my dearly departed cat Brownie was. My anxiety spikes to remarkable heights when I travel.

This time, I did something that I haven’t done much at all since high school: I wrote in pen on my hand so that I would have a continual reminder of something – a homework assignment, in a way.


I had to rewrite it a few times as it washed or rubbed off, but I figured the absorption of ink through my skin was worth the benefit of seeing it there so many times during the day. I will have to come up with a better method, but this was helpful.

One result of this reminder (as well as some of my other tools and techniques) was that I did not throw up once during the weekend. Trust me, that’s an accomplishment. That alone is enough to call the trip a success. I also slept several hours each night, which again, is a feat when I’m out of my element.

Still, for all my progress, one thing keeps coming up in all my searches for helping and preventing anxiety, and that one thing is something I have resisted for years. I don’t know why, but I have refused to practice yoga no matter how many people (including my stellar Buddhist-leaning therapist) have recommended it specifically for the issues I have.

My husband is a total yoga convert, and I enjoy seeing his practice on the weekends, but all his encouragement and prodding could not convince me to join him. (He finds it helps him immensely in his job installing solar panels. His coworkers openly admire his flexibility and balance up on the rooftops, and he credits yoga. Have I mentioned how excellent my husband is?)

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I have tried it halfheartedly a few times, and each time stubbornly would not attempt it again for long periods of time. Always, I had excuses and reasons why it wasn’t for me.

Now that I have truly comprehended the importance of breath in anxiety prevention, I have come around to the fact that yoga is possibly the best thing I could do for myself to make better breathing a regular habit.

And so, I took the plunge and bought myself a yoga mat.


It arrived shortly before our trip, so I have not yet used it! I’m looking forward to it, especially because it’s so pretty, and made of nontoxic materials. I got it from a company called YogaRat. (My husband’s mat is from Gaiam. Even though I do like Gaiam, and we have several of their products, this mat appealed to me the most of all the options I found online.)

Luckily for me, we already have a nice selection of yoga videos on dvd. I recently acquired two from a local thrift store that I’m eager to try. (Those are the orange ones on the left.)


My husband plays them on his laptop since there’s not enough room to practice in front of our television, so that’s my plan, as well.

What I aim to do is roll out my mat and do at least one pose every day, even if I don’t do an entire video or even play one at all, for thirty days. I’ve been seeing a lot of instagram posts about doing rituals, and they have inspired me. Many of them are for 100 days, but I’m not so sure that’s realistic for me. 30 seems like a lot to start with, but I really want to make it a habit, and I’ve heard rumors that it takes about that long to form a habit.

Today, I plan on starting with this dvd:


The idea of “yoga from the heart” appeals to me, as does the instructor herself, Seane Corn. What she’s all about seems to align with what I want out of my yoga practice (and life), and she simply feels more accessible to me than the amazing but slightly intimidating Rodney Yee, who my husband favors. (I don’t want to think it’s a gender thing, but I suppose it could be, and that wouldn’t be the worst thing in the world or make me a terrible person!)

This has been a long post! Thanks for sticking with me this far. I plan on updating at some point with how this 30 days of yoga thing is going. I’ll even admit it if I give up.

Hopefully, blogging about it will give me a sense of accountability, and that could be the last push I need to keep up with it.

Send me your good yoga vibes if you’ve got ’em, and be well!




My friend published a book!

Time to support a fellow writer! One of the women in my writing group has self-published a kindle edition of inspirational quotes as a companion book to one she is currently writing about her experience as a “transmitter” of information from beings that are not quite of this earth.

In her words, “Star Many is a wise and emotionally intelligent organization of Energy Beings.”


Levity Laughing Star is trained as a medicine woman and has done past life regression, and now her calling is to translate the wisdom from this plural energy entity that has sought her out in order to help us humans with our lives.

That’s basically what she has told us in the group, and I apologize if I didn’t explain it clearly enough. The author bio on the page for the book goes into more depth. She is a very vibrant and warm person, sincere and caring. She wants to share the things she has learned with the world, and that’s a noble thing.

Anyway, though we have at least one published author among our group, Levity Laughing Star (who I also know as Laurie) is the first of us to self publish, and the first to publish since we began meeting as a group.

I’ve spoken with Laurie/Levity at great length about her life and experiences, and she has fascinating stories that I hope will come out in the book that is her work-in-progress.

Here is her website, if you’re interested:

I would share some snippets from this book, but I did not yet ask her permission to do that, so I will let you discover what Star Many has to say for yourself (there is also a preview/sample available).

If you’re interested in these tidbits of cosmic wisdom, whatever the source, check it out!

I receive no kickbacks (other than a hug, I would guess) for promoting this book. I’m simply trying to offer a leg up to a friend who has little experience with social media or self-promotion.

Here is the link to the book on Amazon:

Star Many Says E-Book

If you do end up reading it, please let me know how you like it, and also please leave a review on Amazon!

Thanks, folks!